Let's make a mess, Lioness.

I’d say one of the hardest things in life I’ve had to teach myself is.. how to ACCEPT a compliment. So many times, people have complimented me on something and my reaction has always been either ‘No I’m not’ or something along those negative lines. These days, even if I don’t think I am what the compliment entails I am (or whatever) I ignore my inner voice and just accept that someone is sharing positive light and energy in my direction.. and that’s something you’ve gotta absorb. It shapes your confidence and helps it grow. So just say thank you.. not ‘buts’ or ‘nots’

<3 <3 <3

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When did everything become so complicated?

What happened to just enjoying each and every moment…

Why must everyone always have an ulterior motive behind every sentence or action?
I use the term everyone loosely, of course.

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The idea of your hand running through another girl’s hair goes through me.

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I think about who you used to be and who you are now. 
Then when I think about the person I fell in love with,
I remember the moment you picked a girl with dark hair covered in fake tan, over our relationship.  

Then when you tell me it was your moment of weakness,
I believe it for a short moment of time.
Then I hear you bragging about the idea of tapping it being ever so sublime.

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Sometimes I wonder if I should have an actual proper blog as appose to Tumblr but I really can’t be bothered having both.

Well, today I feel somewhat unsuccessful. I’m almost 21 and I’m nowhere near where I envisioned I would be when I was younger. This might sound ridiculous to some people because technically speaking, for my age I have experienced and achieved quite a lot. According to some people, I’ve achieved more than the ‘average’ person my age has achieved but I don’t know.

I can’t help but feel like I’m always competing with myself. I can never do enough. Maybe I’m just too ambitious. My ambitiousness is on a level of cray-cray-crazy. I blame Bipolar but at the same time, that is part of me and that is part of how I operate so I guess this just means I may never be satisfied with myself. Ever.

Sigh.

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I’ve just got home from Sheffield! It didn’t take us nearly as long to get back as it did to get there! I had such a good time! Thank you so much to Jess for taking me to see Ryan Adams! I’d only heard a few of his songs but now I can tell you for sure, I’m a fan. His voice is amazing and he’s so entertaining live. He has such a great but random character. His stage presence and music gave me chills!

To think I wouldn’t have even gone if it wasn’t for Jess asking me randomly the night before because the person she intended to go with, she doesn’t speak to anymore. Haha.

We had a great time. We went to Wagamama before hand and drove around Sheffield listening to Arctic Monkeys (Which had to be done!)

Ryan Adams waved at me too :’) and I waved back, didn’t realise it was him though LMFAO Because he hadn’t been on stage yet.

I also made another two waving buddies. Everyone just seemed to be waving at me. I have no idea why =P

We had such a great chat on the way home too :’) So glad I decided to take a break from all the uni work and go! 

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People ask me how I remain so positive, it’s such a trick question to answer. It changes all of the time. One thing that doesn’t change though, is the fact that you’ve only got one body and one life. Live it. Control it before it controls you. Grab it by the bollocks, don’t be grabbed by the bollocks. Push forward when you’re being pushed backwards and most importantly, live every single day like it’s your last because for all you know, it very well may be. This world is full of darkness, light it up with your soul and shine bright.

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I’ve been doing some research into what recreational drug is the most like my natural euphoric high. Trying to find the correct recreational drug that creates something almost identical to how I feel in that euphoric state… And after quite a bit of research, it’s pretty scary to find out the closest a person without Bipolar can get to experiencing the elevated mood that I experience is to take Speed or LSD. Very interesting. I wonder how I would act if I took either of these, if my natural high is equally as powerful as these then surely that would be like a double dosage of some kind. Crazy times. (Don’t worry, I’m not going to go and take them for shits and giggles to see how it affects my artwork, even though there’s a tiny part of my brain that wants to, haha)

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I could write lyrics every second of every day. I am so in love with words.

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